Recently my mom and sister went on a cruise without me. Since my dad died the 3 of us have gone on cruises together but this time I decided to not go. The destinations didn\u2019t excite me, there were no dive options and I had just gone on vacation to Mexico (one of the stops). So I stayed home. Well, lo and behold, I missed them! It was only a week and I was so surprised that I really, really missed them!
\nI know you all are thinking \u2018well they are your family, dummy, of course you\u2019d miss them\u2019. I would agree with you but add some information. For 17 years I was married to a man who didn\u2019t really like his family. There was nothing wrong with his family, they just weren\u2019t close, at all! I suspect he didn\u2019t really like my family either solely because they were \u2018family\u2019. If they had been just friends he would have liked them (I\u2019ll get into this psychology sometime!). And no matter what you believe, if you live with someone long enough you start to act and think like them. Maybe it\u2019s just women who do this but I did it and I do get that it\u2019s a type of brainwashing, but not done intentionally (maybe). While I was married, I didn\u2019t see my family as much as I should have, we talked on the phone but visits were infrequent, largely because my husband at the time was always a pain in the ass when we went to visit. Toward the end of the marriage, I didn\u2019t even bring him with on visits.
\nI\u2019ve been working on changing my attitude over the last 4 years and have come back to appreciating my family and wanting to spend time with them. They are fun, nice and the only people who will put up with me when I\u2019m being a bitch!
\nSo I\u2019m contemplating moving back home, into my own house, thank you! It\u2019s a scary thought and a big one for me. I\u2019ve always thought my sister and I would live out our old age together but that\u2019s a long way away. I\u2019m thinking of moving now, yikes! But my mom is getting older and I would like to spend time with her. My sister is like my best friend and the cost of living is almost half!
\nDo I move or am I just worried about something? That\u2019s an oddball statement, you say? Yes, but\u2026over the last many years I have had the desire to move to a small town, enjoy the peace and tranquility and slow down. Then each and EVERY time I have fixed some problem or problem someone and the desire to move goes away (dang, I really wish I had that psychology degree, this is so telling).
\nYes, there are a couple things in my life that are bothering me but I\u2019m not sure if that\u2019s the problem or not this time. Fortunately, I can\u2019t and won\u2019t move soon and time will tell how this will resolve itself. Maybe I just need another big adventure and this would be it! CHANGE IS GOOD!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Recently my mom and sister went on a cruise without me. Since my dad died the 3 of us have gone on cruises together but this time I decided to not go. The destinations didn\u2019t excite me, there were no … Continue reading